The End of a New Beginning
I have always dreamed of having a child and having my own family.I am four months pregnant so I’m super excited because my dream has finally come true. My happiness has just started and it’s going to end in a blink of an eye. I will have to decide whether i want to live feeling sorry for myself or am I going to take this experiences and learn from it.
It was a beautiful August Morning. I could feel the hot summer breeze brushing through my face. As I’m getting ready to enter the Hospital I begin to feel a weird feeling in my stomach that I can’texplain. As I’m waiting to be called into the Ultrasound room I begin to feel like my life was getting drain out of me. Someone called my name and I responded with a yes.
I’m pretty excited to find out the gender of my unborn child. What could be more exciting? The moment is finally here. I just can’t explain why my excitement doesn’t feel real. By real I mean is this the feeling of excitement. At this time I can’t really explain. As I laid down on the hard cold bed I noticed the Radiologist walking through the door and I smiled.
As the Radiologist is searching for my fetus I begin to feel pain. I didn’t know whether I was just over reacting or she was putting a whole lot of pressure on my belly. The pain felt more like a hard cold rock being rubbed really hard on my stomach. I’m sorry but I can’t take the pain. No one told me it was going to be this painful. Can you please get someone with more experience I recalled to the student? I felt pretty bad about it after but deep down it was becoming extremely painful… The tall blue eye girl turned around and explained she was having a tough time finding the fetus. Her confused face made me wonder. Is there a problem? .As the door opened I see this really small lady walk into the room she smiles and says ok let’s find this baby. I wish I could feel excited at this point but I’m a little confused with this whole situation. She turns and looks at me and says I’m sorry but there is no fetus. What are you talking about? Wait I can’t seem to understand the words so I said what do you mean. She explained there is an abnormal growth in your left ovary and I’m afraid it could be cancerous. I broke down in tears and walked out the hospital trying to just leave that behind me.
As I got home I just sat on the couch trying to make sense of the words, just trying to picture how this can change my life. Will I be ok? Oh God I’m I going to die. I just can’t seem to get myself together. The phone rang and I was startled I looked at the phone and I could see that the hospital is calling. I was so afraid to pick up the phone. I was afraid that this called could be death calling me. As I picked up the phone I could hear someone breathing. I say hello the man responded Denisse Medina you need to come back to the hospital to get emitted. I just can’t understand what is going on. All I could think about is my baby. I just hoped that the doctors were wrong and it’s just a mistake.